Blogging, A Blessing

Blogging has been a true blessing. It's hard to not have a family to share all the amazing things God does in our sight daily. But blogging has been a blessed way of sharing, I like sharing.

When I began this blog, I think I really needed to be sharing all that God was pouring into me and work out some of my thoughts as I typed. It was a way of "backing-up files" and trying to remember all that I was learning and going through mentally. I was writing often in the AM hours, because there was no other time to write. But I was convicted as I wrote, as I often am when doing any activity when my own quiet time in God's word is lacking. I felt I should have been talking to God more than I was blogging. I also had a fear: When words are many, transgression is not lacking, but whoever restrains his lips is prudent (Pro 10:19). I also wanted to be sure that: So, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God (1 Co 10:31). And the only way I would be assured of this would be through the knowledge of the Word.

So I took a forced sabbatical from blogging, and this proved to be a blessing.

I have spent more consistent time in God's word than I ever have before. I finally made it a priority. With this I began journalling my prayers and conversations with God in one place where I also write what I've learned in the word that day. There has been much to record in praise to Him for this last month, as I have seen Him work in great abundance. I'd always told myself, He uses me so much already, how much more fruitful would my ministry be if I was abiding in His word more abundantly. And that insatiable desire for His word that I've always had, and complained about it's unfulfilled-ness, is being fulfilled in the measure He gives, which really is whatever I am willing to take. I think we can actually grow as fast as we want, or don't want to, since He has given us everything pertaining to life and godliness, it all depends on our obedience to Him, which He never fails to richly bless.

(Why do my thoughts always rabbit trail together!)

I now feel like this blog needs to take another direction... a much needed one, although I would love to keep sharing as I have.

I would love to make this a place where I share the stories of the lost, the stories of the struggles, the stories of the Gospel. All for the purpose of encouraging and pleas for prayer to my faithful prayer warriors, which I cannot live without and am eternally, joyfully indebted to and humbled by! May God bless you all 700 fold for sustaining me!

I will be sharing different kinds of posts, things I write to others so that you see that perspective, prayers I've prayed to God for my own memory's sake down the line, and several blurbs and quotes I find very edifying and encouraging and sanctifying.

I wish I could go back in time over the past 6 months and record the culmination of the codification of thoughts of my life's journey to this point as I now can see it in such a blessed light, and all the means by which God brought these blessed conclusions about. But that cannot happen, unless I get some horrible illness that puts me in bed for who knows how long (yes thoughts like these come as I have been feeling pain in my body I have never had before in the last month and increasing in the last few weeks). But even in this may I praise God knowing He is Sovereign and Good.

I will give you the conclusion to my life's journey so far (which no doubt could turn into another hour of blogging because I can already hear the rabbit trails in my head).

The conclusion is this, I never want to complain about another thing in my life again. All those years of comparing my life to everyone around me whether christian or not and not believing that God was giving me good gifts as the Bible promises (I can hardly type it, it sounds so blasphemous knowing God's amazing goodness in salvation alone, which I knew all along... but not in it's fullness as I do now, which we can discuss later) I have repented of, knowing that He was sovereign and used it all fully to bring me to where I am today, for which I wouldn't trade for anything.

This perspective should pull me through every circumstance and every instance of looking at what someone else has that I don't and saying to myself it's not fair, which of course is not true. What is not fair is that I am alive, that I have Christ, that I have breath and that I have eternity. Wow. Just go outside look up at the sky and ponder that for a while.

Getting to glorify God in the ways He's allowed me to is the greatest gift I could have ever asked for.

Kathlene Hetzel, one of my faithful prayer warriors, whom I shared with last Sunday about my pain said maybe it's God's way of slowing you down and I said no I don't want to, to which she replied, I don't want you to either, I like what you're doing, and I said I am sooo blessed by it, and she said, so are we, and I said good, I want you to be! I delight to bless you all with sharing what God is doing (it sounds so weird, but it's just the way it is, that we are blessed to see God working - that's not the weird part). So I desire to be boldly humble in sharing that we together will praise God and labor together in prayer.

Thank you for your prayers past and for your prayers future. May we glory in Him! Soli Deo Gloria! Blessed be the name of the Lord!